Desperate Creators Create Desperate Creations

Flowing…what does that feel like? 

Have you ever felt the flow of water rushing past you in a river or allowed the waves to carry you in the ocean?

What if life was meant to be this way?

Pushing Against Life’s Flow

Last weekend and prior to that I was pushing against the flow. I believed I knew what I was here for in life. I believed that going through the void was so painful and I felt it would never end. Prior to last weekend I had excitement about life but it was coming from a place of self importance, of insecurity and it was not grounded. I came from a place where I felt I had to organise and control much of my life to make it work.

Life does not work this way. If we come from a place of insecurity, or self doubt, if we create from these heavy places we create heavy spaces and as Jaya said to me on a blog recently:

 “desperate creators, create desperate creations!”.

With my business I was creating from desperation. In the beginning it was exciting. I left my full time job in retail to go full time self employed. I was supported with so much love from Mike both financially and emotionally and I did not research enough into my business before doing it.

When I was working in retail my part time business on eBay looked like it was doing great, but I did not do my calculations properly or anything at all that needed to be done. 

I learned some very harsh lessons in business, how an idea can be grand and beautiful, but it has to also be grounded too. I see so many people on the spiritual path who have wonderful ideas in business yet they leap right in without considering the practicalities too.

A Life Purpose Learning Curve

This time has been a great curve for me. 

I said to the universe within me ‘I am ready to let go of control and see where the flow takes me’. 

I have never been in the flow for very long in my life, perhaps I allowed the flow to carry me in some areas, but I have been controlling over what I thought was my life’s work. I had ideas based on ‘shoulds’ and what sounds interesting, felt important or what would get me attention and love. 

My life works ideas were based on insecurities and needs. I recommend anyone who is wondering why what they are trying to do in their lives is not working to ask:

Why do you want to do what you want to do? 

Be real honest with yourself and keep asking ‘Why’ until you get to the root. 

You may experience a dropping away of all that no longer works, you may find yourself empty of ideas, creativity passion for a while, you may feel stripped away of everything you thought you were. And through the void, through the surrender to this empty state you will discover a flow of light that will carry you through your life.

Be Life The River

Be like the river, discover what you really want, what makes you feel good, this does not necessarily mean ‘serving others’, we often serve others to make ourselves feel worthwhile, but we are worthwhile without doing this, so what really gets you going? Get clear with your likes and wants.

State them out-loud. For example it may seem simple, it may seem not as ‘worthy’ as some other life paths or work, but you may like shopping, you may like animals, dancing, spending time with friends, chatting in coffee shops, travelling. 

What if your basic wants and loves in life could be something a life work or job could be opened into? 

What if your likes actually had a role out there just for you? 

Maybe the flow can carry you to a role, job, work, place that has all these amazing qualities that you enjoy in your life? 

Can you let go of control enough to allow this place to happen? Are you ready to stop the search for the perfect job, perfect place, perfect partner, perfect life?

Let go into the flow, drop the need to seek and find, it will find you, be open and aware and be you!

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Kelly Martin
Kelly Martin

Kelly Martin, author of ‘When Everyone Shines But You’ is a dedicated writer and blogger who fearlessly explores life’s deepest questions. Faced with a decade of profound anxiety and grief following the loss of her father and her best friend Michael, Kelly embarked on a transformative journey guided by mindfulness, and she hasn’t looked back since. Through her insightful writing, engaging podcasts, and inspiring You Tube channel Kelly empowers others to unearth the hidden treasures within their pain, embracing the profound truth that they are ‘enough’ exactly as they are.

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  1. May 26, 2007 / 11:52 pm

    and what if you just worked a few hours as week,, and had all the rest of your time to do what ever it is you feel will bring that flow back to your life… i have cut myself down to four days,, so that i have plenty of time for writing and reflection… and i can tell you ,, i wouldn’t have made it thru the past few months if i had not taken that time to just be me… whatever it was at the time…

  2. May 30, 2007 / 3:39 pm

    Hi Kelly, your blog is great – I look forward to reading much more, you speak with wisdom.

  3. May 31, 2007 / 10:49 am

    Hi Paisley, totally! I am going to have at least 3 days off a week be it to do my business or do whatever else I need to do on a soul level. Just being is sooo important. xx

  4. May 31, 2007 / 10:50 am

    Hi Anna, thankyou, I love your images on your blog havent had a chance to look properly but will have a gander over the next few days.

    Hugs x

  5. May 31, 2007 / 2:58 pm

    Kelly thank you so much for all your wonderful support these past couple of days (not to mention all the times in the past!) I have let go of my business idea plus the need to succeed in languages to a degree level!! I am already a success I just need to believe it!!

    I have cut back everything but finding a job and healing for I never heal – I’m trying to be in the flow and see where I end up… it’s gonna be interesting…

  6. June 3, 2007 / 11:32 am

    Hi Amanda, so glad I was of some help and sending your heaps of love.

    Kelly xxx

  7. June 11, 2007 / 4:56 am

    Hope you have been experiencing smoothe currents.

    Just happened upon your blog; very nice! Thanks for sharing.

  8. June 12, 2007 / 12:05 pm

    Thanks Latrelle xxx

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