2012 and into 2013 – A New Cycle

Wow, as I sit here I contemplate what to say. It has been an interesting year, and one where I had to take a break from ‘Kelly Martin Speaks’. Beliefs, thoughts, come and go. We often do not know what will stay or what will cement itself in our consciousness. Some ideas we hold onto, some ideas we let go of. Me, I have let go of a lot, and… View Post

Affluenza – Are You Addicted To Affluence?

Prior to entering competitions and winning I was quite content and able to let my life unfold and be at peace with my simple life. Once I started winning I was aware of this addiction to the buzz of the material world and I am now swinging back to the centre on this topic. I look around and instead of the increase in technology, the increase in health-care, the increase… View Post

Our Human Need To Help

Where does our need to help come from as humans? Do we help when we see someone hurting or in trouble? What is help?   When does help become unwanted or intrusive?   Sometimes my own help comes from a heart-centred place, a place where I feel someone is hurting and calling out for help on some level. Often though I tried to help when the person had not asked for help. I… View Post

Alone – Aloneness – Lonely – Seeking One’s Own Light

I wanted to write a short update for my blog. So how am I doing right now? Well – letting it all unfold.  It is all I can do right now. It’s funny because all the things I used to do, all the behaviour or the choices I made, were choices made to make me feel better via feedback from the outside world. And as I allowed my life to unfold… View Post

On Being Raw, Authentic, Controversial And Challenging

After grappling with something this week I recognised that it is time to be proud of my uniqueness. I browse around countless other sites on-line, blogs, websites, You Tube channels, Facebook pages etc etc.. and I sit and wonder: ‘Why do they have so many followers? What do they do that I do not?’ And so it began, a thought process. Mike helped me understand some of it this morning. He said when… View Post

Looking Deeper Than Outward Appearances

“…If you penetrate to the core of your existence you can see through the outer show of others. By presenting yourself as you really are, you can make them aware of the process you have been through, so they no longer have to hide themselves from you.”    Changing Line 6 – The IChing – Frits Blok   Last night I had some thoughts show up about trust and how… View Post

Can You Be Happy Without Money?

Can we, as humans in the West, be happy without money? Can I be happy without all the ‘stuff’? It’s fairly easy to moan and complain about a lack of money but sometimes money is what money is. We either have it or we don’t. We may have a lot, none or some. Many people in the world are addicted to affluence, it is hard to get out of that… View Post

Embracing LOST

  I have missed blogging here but it just hasn’t felt good for me to write my thoughts down publicly this past month and a bit. Lots has been going on, inside me. A quick round up of the ‘stuff’. Acknowledged some deep childhood issues and making peace with the women in my life. Allowing myself to re-connect with close family. Letting the woman in me connect with other women.… View Post

The Beauty Of Okay

“There is no external source of our suffering, pain, pleasure and happiness. Our experiences of the good, the bad and the ugly are the creations of our minds.”   – Dzogche Ponlop Rinpoche Sometimes I find it easy to be with myself, sometimes I don’t.   Sometimes the sunshine, beautiful landscape invigorates me, sometimes it doesn’t.  Will there ever become a time when the landscape, the beauty of the day consistently pleases… View Post

My Own Backyard – A Day In My Life – My Little Slice Of Heaven

I live in a beautiful part of the UK in an area called Gloucestershire. My home is in the city of Gloucester and I love walking the urban lanes and city streets to get to my little slice of heaven. On an ordinary day it takes me around 1 hour and 1/2 to get to this tranquil haven I call ‘Gloucester’s hidden secret’. Many people who live outside Gloucester often frown upon Gloucester,… View Post