So things were moving smoothly, you felt like change was happening, you could see that life was unfolding, the old illusory you was shifting, you felt better about who you were, you felt your purpose was unfolding, you felt more connected to others, more confident, more social and BAM! The death cycle hits you. I’m in the midst of what feels like a death cycle. I often feel we follow the seasons of…
View PostWhat does world peace mean? Is it actually possible to have world peace? I believe peace is an inside job. It is clear war is all about who is right and who is wrong, a strong clear conflict with difference of opinion and values, often difference of religion or perspective on what is right and what is wrong. Wars can never end by fighting back It is clear looking through…
View PostIt’s tough going when your reputation is on the line. The ego likes to get you in its grip and tries to get you to do something to get your reputation back, but why? If people are going to judge you, no amount of trying is going to change their minds. Some people like to validate their points of view, so will take on whatever information or gossip they are…
View PostHow old are you? Are you in your twenties, thirties, forties or beyond? I remember that in my teens and twenties I had big ideas for my life. I saw myself as doing something worthwhile, but I passed over many different routes to who I am and nothing really cemented, nothing sustained. I’m 39 this year. That big 40 is looming. Many people may freak out…
View PostNext year I turn 40 and for most of the time I look around at people my own age and I don’t feel that age at all. Inside me is a 25 year old who is now re-living her misspent youth. When I was a teenager I had a hard challenging time, like most teenagers, but I did not feel I fully lived my youth. I was also quite a shy child…
View PostFeeling vulnerable, something I have felt a lot in my life. Vulnerable in relationships, vulnerable in grief, vulnerable in loneliness – vulnerable. “Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we…
View PostNo-thing is certain, the only certainty we have is life itself. Life is beyond all form, all shape or sense of control, it has no limits, it has no edges, it is like the sky itself. “He took his hands off the oars and pulled in the mooring rope. If I make a couple of loops, he thought, I can strap the axe on to my back. He had a…
View PostMany people may have vivid feelings of freedom as a child, me? Not so much. I remember playing and having fun as a young child, but I was also racked with this feeling of physical restriction, like I was held back by something. I used to walk with a bent back, never held my head high because of life experiences early on and being picked on for being tall. Freedom…
View PostIt’s hard to be seen. Really hard when you have spent a lifetime hiding your light under the proverbial bushel. Because often when we want people to see us we remove the invisibility cloak, but we want people to see only our good qualities, our positive side. In a way when we remained in the shadows people never got to see our light or our dark, they never got to…
View PostOver 4 years ago I left my job because I knew that working in retail was no longer for me and I wanted to ‘find myself’ as clichéd as this sounds. With the help of my best friend I learned to live on a small budget and go without the luxuries many people may enjoy in this world. It was a big risk to take, but it was…
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