The Silent Files - Destruction Of The Old Identity - Part 2

(This post was left in the ‘not good enough’ pile of drafts in 2011, so much has changed since I posted, a re-birthing did take place and I became an author)

Releasing Your Identity Part 2

Continued from Part 1 HERE

I know deep down there is gold within me. A divine quality I am yet to face. The worldly distractions need to be removed so I can really face who I am.

As such, the fears, the traumas, anything un-resolved rises to the surface. I notice extreme judgemental-ism and intolerance arising in me. It’s funny, as the more aware I become of the bigger picture of life, the more intolerant I become of anyone not ‘getting it’. And I must not judge myself about this for very little is written about ‘the void’ of the spiritual journey. It is part of the crumbling, a part of the ego’s last hold.

As the illusions drop from our eyes, at first, frustration, resentment, judgement and intolerance will arise. We are the saint and the sinner all in one body. Positive thinking and positive tools and exercises merely sugar-coat what eventually we all must face – our whole self.

The Only Way Is Through

The Buddha, Jesus, Gandhi, all went through rites of fire.

The Buddha did not sit under the Bodhi tree, close his eyes, meditate and suddenly reach enlightenment. He would have been much like Jesus, experienced judgement of the human species, pain about the unfairness and atrocities of the world (Jesus and the money changers for example) and a walk through the fire of transformation.The un-conditional love, acceptance and inner peace was not an instant enlightenment ready-made meal they would have gone through.I sometimes feel Western society may have a more challenging time of releasing the old identity. Mainly because we have created so much ‘stuff’ and distraction. So little time for awareness, so little space for simply being with who we are. In fact we have filled our lives to complete distraction in the West. Anything to make us feel better – most of it from the outside, very little from the inside.

So I feel really blessed to have this time, this space and this aloneness. It can feel scary, lonely and painful at times. Being with ALL of me. Resistance still arises and I feel I have just entered the fire, but not fully. My ego still has been grabbing on to the familiar, the known.

If you feel like your life is crumbling and who you thought you were is dissolving, take it as the transformative effects of the spiritual cleansing fire. Your inner self is ready for change.

You are ready to meet your real self.

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Kelly Martin

Kelly Martin is a dedicated mental health writer and blogger who fearlessly explores life’s deepest questions. Faced with a decade of profound anxiety and grief following the loss of her father and her best friend Michael, Kelly embarked on a transformative journey guided by mindfulness, and she hasn’t looked back since. Through her insightful writing, engaging podcasts, and inspiring You Tube channel Kelly empowers others to unearth the hidden treasures within their pain, embracing the profound truth that they are ‘enough’ exactly as they are.

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