Shamanic Healing

Nicks room that he does the shamanic work in is in his basement and simply entering this room was like entering another dimension. I physically felt like I had left the physical world into a new world, I have never felt this before.

We talked about what was involved in shamanic healing and it involved soul retrieval, soul extraction and bringing in the power animal. It sounds all a bit strange I know, but it resonated so much more after he described what it all meant.

My energy body was totally dismembered during the process and re-membered. I imagine all the time I drank alcohol for 10 years and the time I allowed my body to be abused by others had this effect. It fully explained the feelings of disempowerment most of my life too. He also said I had given part of my soul to my dad when he passed over to the world of spirit and my dad happily gave it back. I didn’t realise till later my dad had given it to him on a piece of paper and realised my dad was playing a joke. It was like the fish sole and he was handing it over on newspaper, so like a fish and chips meal, my dad has a good sense of humour.I was told my power animal and am spending time now connecting with him.

I was thinking about dance in the car coming back. I now realise why I had been feeling disempowered and nervous at five rhythms, a part of me was trying to fake confidence and strength with big bold movements because my energy body was so fragmented. With my sensitivities in such a place for major release for many people their I was taking on other peoples stuff too, thinking it was my own. Stag will also protect me when I go to dance. I realise now I needn’t make bold big movements. These big movements could possibly be something I have done for a long time, a charade of confidence when now it is time to establish power and nobility in the small.

Since having the healing I feel small, but not in a disempowering way. I feel reconnected inside of me. It really is like all the parts of me that had fragmented due to trauma of my past have come back to me and I am now whole. Needless to say some emotion is coming up as a result and Nick said I should give myself a few months to integrate it all and only then decide if I need to go for more shamanic healing. There is no pressure at all to continue getting the healing, which I found refreshing. He is a lovely guy, very grounded and very compassionate. He is very in tune with energy.

So let’s see where this all goes. Time to begin again from a whole new standpoint.