Early this morning I lay in bed and an early life experience flooded back into my mind. It was the day I received my GCSE results from school. I felt a mixture of fear and excitement and opened it with expectations. I was shocked and surprised to discover my results, primarily that of my Art course. Every year leading up to my final year in high school (even in my…
View PostThe unfolding river is inside of me. Whenever I sense urgency, whenever I sense a pushing within me, I remind myself that the unfolding river flows inside of me. When I feel the planning, organising mind, again, sharing its sense of urgency and desperation. I remind myself, the flowing river is inside of me. When a spark of creativity flows from within, bubbling like a babbling brook awakened for the first…
View PostSo this week has become a rather reflective time for me, as I recover from a viral infection, I have lots of time to ponder and speak with myself. As I lay on my bed today, I was looking at my picture of Lakshmi, the Goddess that represents for me, both inner and outer wealth. I was looking at the images of the coins coming out from one of her…
View PostI spend most days alone. With the exception of sharing a home with my friend Mike, at most 5 days of those I am walking in nature, being simply with myself, the birds, bees and Mother Earth. Many days it is a wonderous experience, exploring, enjoying nature, animals and all the creatures that walk or fly on my path. Occastionally, I have a very strong inner response, that of aching loneliness.…
View PostIt is really easy to understand why so many people in the world, including me, will do anything to try and keep some element of control on life, even though its only perceived control. The real unknown, the real flying by the seat of your pants uncertainty is scary stuff! The mind, ego, needs to grasp onto something and so when distractions in life have been almost all taken away…
View PostThe Universe that creates worlds, created this tree. No human was standing by it pushing on its trunk saying “come on grow taller! where are your leaves?! bear fruit for me! hurry up and grow!”. I don’t spend my time standing by a tree branch looking at baby birds in a nest yelling at them to grow ‘real’ feathers so they can fly. No, I don’t try and force the…
View PostSomething that has been arising for me lately is my earlier dependence on material abundance. More clothes, more food, more money, more technology… more and more and more…. As time has gone by while I have desires still they are becoming more desires to experience life. While luxury would be nice, while wealth would be nice, I don’t feel such a dependent need on it. I have just read ‘Tuesdays…
View PostIt has been nearly 6 months now since I voluntarily left my last job. I left because I sensed my redundancy was coming. Once I decided to hand my notice in all my creativity flooded back to me. I finally understood what I wanted for my life, what my heart was longing to do. Travel the world. A deep part of me calling out to travel, finally I allowed…
View PostYesterday an earthquake of the magnitude 8.9 hit the Pacific Ocean nearby Northeastern Japan triggering a massive tsunami. It is estimated over a 1000 people have died. I often imagine Mother Earth is within my womb. She goes through all the changes I go through. Her balance is within me. Have you ever had emotions so overwhelming you could not stop crying, a feeling of water washing through your whole…
View PostBeing an outsider is the most rewarding experience of my life. For many years I have tried to fit into a mould. During school years the mould of my peers, during college the mould of intellectuals, as my spiritual awakening happened – the mould of the spiritual elite. AND for most of the time I was always trying to fit the mould of expectations from my biological…
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