After I split from my last partner I cried a river. It came as a complete surprise to me as logically the relationship had only lasted 3 months and I have been in much longer ones, but I know I was a different person this time. Previous heartbreak occurred 15+ years ago because I had consciously chosen to be single for some time. In many ways I needed such a…
View PostI hold my hands up, I ignored red flags to experience my first fall into love, but I wouldn’t change a thing. I emerged into love, I embraced love, I felt love, my heart opened and flowered in ways I had never felt before and for this I am grateful to my past lover, but this does not mean I have not also learnt a lot from the experience. What…
View PostSometimes life throws you challenges and sometimes it’s not easy coping when they come. As many of you know from reading my book and my blog, my life has not been a smooth running life, like many reading this I imagine. Life has given me many opportunities to accept what is, to embrace my reality and to find a tenderness in what takes place. Earlier this year I had my…
View PostYippee!! Today is the last day of the challenge and 26 posts later. I am very pleased that I got this far and did not miss one day and was not even a day late. So today, ZEN. What is Zen? Zen is a school of Mahayana Buddhism that developed in China during the Tang dynasty as Chán. From China, Zen spread south to Vietnam, northeast to Korea and east…
View PostNext year I turn 40 and for most of the time I look around at people my own age and I don’t feel that age at all. Inside me is a 25 year old who is now re-living her misspent youth. When I was a teenager I had a hard challenging time, like most teenagers, but I did not feel I fully lived my youth. I was also quite a shy child…
View PostOkay, sooo… as I am coming to the end of this blogging challenge I am cheating today. My theme is feelings and apart from Xenophobic and X’d out I chose something on a list of adjectives and one word was XOXO, totally cheating. XOXO stands for kisses and hugs and totally unrelated to feelings, but well.. I feel kissable and and huggable sometimes so why not? Sometimes I just…
View PostMany would probably think of me as a younger wild child, I drank far too much alcohol in my earlier years from around 14, but I was not so much wild, more lost and empty. I reacted badly when I was 13 to my sister being born as an only child and it was a shock to suddenly have a sister, but more so my parents attention went to the…
View PostFeeling vulnerable, something I have felt a lot in my life. Vulnerable in relationships, vulnerable in grief, vulnerable in loneliness – vulnerable. “Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we…
View PostNo-thing is certain, the only certainty we have is life itself. Life is beyond all form, all shape or sense of control, it has no limits, it has no edges, it is like the sky itself. “He took his hands off the oars and pulled in the mooring rope. If I make a couple of loops, he thought, I can strap the axe on to my back. He had a…
View Post2015 POST As the challenge goes on for this A to Z writing extravaganza the words get slightly tougher as my theme is feelings. I was considering ‘thankful’, but then I thought I would simply share what tickles me pink and I admit perhaps some are more awe-filled and not so tickled, but joy tickles me so awe is tickly too (smile). TICKLED PINK : verb (used with object), tickled, tickling.…
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