This morning I had some old drama creep into my mind, and I ran the train of thought until I was in panic mode. I won’t go into details but it really put things into perspective regarding the bigger picture of life. None of us are victims – we are not powerless to circumstances – we are not dis-empowered by people ‘out there’. No road is available to us unless…
View PostIt is said the fear of dying is behind all fears and it probably is. Yet for ‘me’ it’s not so much a fear of dying but more a fear of not living. I am writing this blog entry to objectify a rather unpleasant series of dreams I had last night. I dream very vividly, write them down and interpret them. This series felt like I needed to get them…
View Post“…If you penetrate to the core of your existence you can see through the outer show of others. By presenting yourself as you really are, you can make them aware of the process you have been through, so they no longer have to hide themselves from you.” Changing Line 6 – The IChing – Frits Blok Last night I had some thoughts show up about trust and how…
View PostThis week I realised my lovely ego was attempting to get me to run, leap and jump into the future me. It wanted me to be beyond where I was in that moment, to fly with creativity before I have my wings, and I listened for a little while. I asked myself do I want to be a ‘professional’ artist, right now? Sell my work. OH YES! my ego…
View PostI have missed blogging here but it just hasn’t felt good for me to write my thoughts down publicly this past month and a bit. Lots has been going on, inside me. A quick round up of the ‘stuff’. Acknowledged some deep childhood issues and making peace with the women in my life. Allowing myself to re-connect with close family. Letting the woman in me connect with other women.…
View PostSometimes life throws you internal curve balls and if something is not dealt with it simply becomes bigger and bigger until we have no choice but to deal with it. My curve ball is anxiety. Anxiety has been an emotion that has been so familiar to me ever since I was a small child. My mother suffered from it, my father suffered from it, and I guess I did from an…
View Post“There is no external source of our suffering, pain, pleasure and happiness. Our experiences of the good, the bad and the ugly are the creations of our minds.” – Dzogche Ponlop Rinpoche Sometimes I find it easy to be with myself, sometimes I don’t. Sometimes the sunshine, beautiful landscape invigorates me, sometimes it doesn’t. Will there ever become a time when the landscape, the beauty of the day consistently pleases…
View PostI am sitting at this computer to help me understand what I need to know right now about this subject of validation. It is not until I started questioning where I am coming from that this subject keeps coming up for me. When I felt part of the human tribe, an insider, a person who belonged to a group or sector of society, my validation, my reason for being…
View Post“A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary.” ~Thomas Carruthers “The true teacher defends his pupils against his own personal influence. He inspires self-distrust. He guides their eyes from himself to the spirit that quickens him. He will have no disciple.” ~Amos Bronson Alcott “The teacher who is indeed wise does not bid you to enter the house of his wisdom but rather leads you to the threshold of…
View PostI live in a beautiful part of the UK in an area called Gloucestershire. My home is in the city of Gloucester and I love walking the urban lanes and city streets to get to my little slice of heaven. On an ordinary day it takes me around 1 hour and 1/2 to get to this tranquil haven I call ‘Gloucester’s hidden secret’. Many people who live outside Gloucester often frown upon Gloucester,…
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