Chinese ProverbYou cannot prevent the birds of sorrow from flying over your head, but you can prevent them from building nests in your hair.
Since implementing structure into my days I am noticing a vibrant energy flowing through me. Structure is bringing me a sense of taking charge of my life. I feel like a rider on a great steed, riding fully into my life. I feel onboard the ship of my experiences now instead of bobbing around floating on the water of my emotions. I feel by creating order, structure, variety, and using my time more wisely, I am benefitting by having better feeling thoughts and moods.
Taking charge, to me, is not taking control in the sense that we might try to control an outcome. It is also not taking control of another person or trying to control the direction of the flow of life. Taking charge is moving with the flow of life.
My taking charge came about after a period of spending time alone, spending time walking, and most of all having none of the distractions that a busy life can have. I needed the distraction-free time; I needed to empty the bowl from which my new found creativity is flowing. I needed to empty myself out so that the new me could begin to take shape and flow out into the world.
For a while I needed to go into my world, to pluck the ripe seeds of my inspiration and to discover what I like and love doing. Now it is time to go out into my world.
Prior to structure beginning in my life, I found the time without structure challenging. Yet I also found a lack of structure worthwhile for as long as it lasted. Without being in that state of allowing, the willingness to be with what the mind could perceive as ‘nothing’, ’empty’, I would not have allowed the space within me to be filled with something more nourishing and enjoyable.
It could have been so very easy to fill that ’empty’ place within me. The void is something many people ‘a-void’ because it can feel dark, painful and helpless. We can feel like it will never end and yet when these feelings arise I had to be with them and let my personal void be filled up with balance and creativity.
In the past I would have worked a lot, ate a lot, socialised a lot, watched TV a lot, social networked on the internet a lot and the list would go on.
It was not my job to fill my bowl, to fill my void, to try and control what the ‘new’ was going to be. I had no idea at the time. It just felt painful and empty.
Now as I my inner self brings forth new feelings, new inspiration, I can see clearly the benefits of the void. The benefits of floating, flowing, allowing the feelings and experiences I experienced.
I am being gentle with myself as I initiate structure into my life also. Structure can feel so different when we have spent time simply allowing and being. Yet I can see spending less time doing things for the sake of it and more time doing activities because they feel usefull and fulfilling, brings a greater sense of esteem and life to my living.
If anybody is reading this and feeling in the void: if you have a feeling that your life is empty and devoid of any good feeling, be with it. This is all I can say to you. For even in my darkest hours I knew I was not meant to fill the empty space inside. For by leaving it alone, letting the feelings come forth and flow, eventually in time, at the perfect time, God, Source, Life (whatever you want to call your inner self) will show you a new way, begin to open up your eyes to many different paths and avenues you may have not considered before.
And when the time comes, you will feel inspired to make changes, big or small, to your day to day life. Be it structure, to taking a class, a course, whatever the change may be. And these changes will come forth from a more grounded and stable place of being.
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Kelly Martin, author of ‘When Everyone Shines But You’ is a dedicated writer and blogger who fearlessly explores life’s deepest questions. Faced with a decade of profound anxiety and grief following the loss of her father and her best friend Michael, Kelly embarked on a transformative journey guided by mindfulness, and she hasn’t looked back since. Through her insightful writing, engaging podcasts, and inspiring You Tube channel Kelly empowers others to unearth the hidden treasures within their pain, embracing the profound truth that they are ‘enough’ exactly as they are.
Wow! Really good! Love this. It's amazing how parallel our journeys are. I am also at this point. I'm kind of "forced" to, but I am ready to Live Life again. My cocoon time is ending. Thank you. Love you! 🙂 *hugs*
P.S. Thanks for the shout out. 🙂
((Jennifer)) so happy for you hun, LIVING LIFE! YES! love you xxxxx